Running on Empty

Lately, I have been feeling rather emotionally drained. So much so that there were days when I despaired of life… just the thought of getting up to face another day felt almost meaningless. During days like these, I had to focus on just doing little tasks like clearing my desk. That felt like a huge accomplishment in itself. When I felt sad, I looked at my kids and their silly antics reminded me to smile.

As I reflected on my emotional state, how I got here, and where I wanted to go in life… I realised that I have been running on empty. As a person, I have always thrived on creativity, energy and ideas. I have been drained and tried looking at people to fill up this cup of mine, when what I really needed was to soak in God’s presence. I really needed God to fill my cup, to tell me that things are ok, that He has got my back and that I need to only rely on Him.

So I am rewiring myself. I am learning to focus on the journey and to see myself as how God sees me. I am learning to fill my cup with positive thoughts.  It is then that I can pour into my marriage, children and career from a cup that is full.

In conclusion, my friends, fill your minds with those things that are good and that deserve praise: things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and honorable. Put into practice what you learned and received from me, both from my words and from my actions. And the God who gives us peace will be with you. (Philippians 4:8‭-‬9 GNT)